why do i fall for guys so easily? all i ever end up with is an enemy and a broken heart. when will i ever learn not to get so attached and just leave it all up to Jesus to bring me the right one? why do i have such a problem with giving it up to Him? if id just learn to give it over to God and let him keep it i think id be ok... its just so hard for me for some reason... its like i get all wrapped up in trying to get someone to like me that i loose my focus on God and just take matters into my own hands and just slip further away from God and get more and more frustrated. im starting to realize that i give my trust and my heart away way too easily. i tell myself every time i like someone and i end up getting hurt... "im gonna guard my heart next time, im not gonna let anyone else hurt me." that never happens, because the very next time i like someone i end up getting hurt cuz i took matters into my own hands and put my heart out there...
all that i need to realize is that once i stop looking God will bring me the right guy, the one ill spend forever with...once i go looking is where i get hurt ....im 18 years old and ive never ever had a boyfriend... ive had crushes sure, who hasn't, but no one has ever liked me back..... i want my first boyfriend to be my last...i want to marry my first love.... i don't want anymore pain and broken hearts...
i believe that when you date someone you are potentially looking to marry that person.. dating is not something to be taken lightly... people shouldn't date unless they are ready for the possibility of marriage sometime down the road possibly in that relationship...
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some good thoughts =)
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